I am so excited to meet you, and I’m really glad you’re here! I am able to do what I love because you, and others like you, and that really means a lot!

 As many of you know by now, I am a boudoir photographer. I absolutely love it, and I also understand that it is very uncomfortable for some people to talk about and also probably difficult to understand. 

Let me see if I can shed some light on the situation.

As a Christian, one of my favorite stories in the Bible is when Elijah goes into the wilderness. He’s running for his life and ready to die. And God said “go to the mountain.” Which, just doesn’t make sense to me. God creates this environment where Elijah is totally dependent. God feeds him, and brings him to where he can’t be distracted by others or outside influence. God shows him, through “nature art” (my words, not God’s) that God isn’t who we expect God is. And then God tells him some mic drop truth - “go back the way you came.” And that’s it! He literally goes back to the exact same place where he was picked up, and God didn’t change Elijah’s circumstances. 

And that’s what I believe art is meant for. It’s meant to be an isolated incident that is sometimes jarring, but meant to take you out of your everyday life. It changes you and how you think, but it doesn’t change your circumstances. How powerful that art has the potential to be used in this way - art can heal!

One of the most painful and wrong beliefs I have about myself is that I should be ashamed of my body. As a Christian, I have very scarring memories of being shamed about my body. I remember threatened that if I wasn’t modest enough, I would lead men astray (ultimately implying that I would be responsible for them going to hell). I believed that I had to be modest, but beautiful; sexy but not sexual. Some of you might read this and still think, “yes, that is proper and should be attainable,” and that is ok for you. But in my personal experience, I have many deep wounds that even now haven’t healed, and it has absolutely affected my ability to be a whole, healthy and happy human. I absolutely grew up believing that I had to disatcosiate from femininity or sexuality or my body in order to be loved by God. Especially when there’s no way to just leave a body behind, that kinda sucks. 

But, I also have a memory of being in a museum when I was a kid. I was afraid to be seen looking at any of the naked pictures, but there was an absolutely gorgeous marble statue of a full figured woman, and I couldn’t look away. There was no shame in her face. She just WAS. She was sexual but not sexualized. She was imperfect and heavier than I thought I should be, but she was GORGEOUS. And something happened to me. My mindset started to change. I saw the truth. A little voice in my head told me I COULD believe a world in which I could accept my body as part of myself. 

When you look at imagery that I make, I very much want you to remember what is true about you. I know that I can’t change your circumstances (I wish I could!), but I want you to see the truth of who you actually are - which, the truth is, you’re AMAZING. 

Our economy is built on the idea that we need to create in others a perceived need. If we didn’t, no one would buy anything! Unhappy people buy more stuff. People who believe they are shit look for things that will make them accepted and loved by others. 

But what if we just decided to love ourselves? 

So. Boudoir. 

Some people shoot boudoir because it’s sexy. I shoot boudoir for you. Yes, you. And yes, I can say that without seeing you or knowing exactly who is reading this. 

Because EVERY. SINGLE. HUMAN. Deserves to love themselves. 

And yet, humans are sexualized, and then expected not to be sexual. And that’s not healthy or good, and that thinking has hurt a lot of people (including myself). 

My primary objective of me being a boudoir photographer is to use my art to create a healing environment, a mountain, or a healing quiet pool with beautiful flowers and a restful warm summer breeze (my idea of a healing space) where people feel safe to explore the ideas of “maybe I’m beautiful” or “maybe I’m enough.” 

I want you to allow yourself to be a whole, healthy and happy sexual human. Because you exist within a human body, and it’s a normal biological and evolutionary experience that you are sexual! And when you love yourself, and accept yourself, we see the confidence on your face, and you’re able to show up to the world in a way where we need you to. Because there is only one you. 

So whatever that healing journey looks like for you, I’m here for it. Whatever healing you need in your sexual, amazing, and sexy journey, I want to capture it. And then I want to give you pictures, so that you can look back on a rainy day and remember how amazing you are. 

-B